Stuck in reverse

Dearest Perempuan,

How'd more laziest all of time
Lmost a few months aii've got
just stay in house..
Dammed, aii've even doesn't understand
how look like the outsider!!
Hiaggss*
aii've got a lot world inside, perhaps
sow..aii've fell don't matter
if aii live like a cage!!

earlies Times
myparents told me
when aii've got apply some job
n going to far from them!!
aii wanna sow much*
but aii dun't know,
aii've still doesn't could imagine
how getting job living!!
Yea, aii've still feel like 18years old
baby girl and jus feeling aii'm in school
and goin' to the beat with my friends!!

Yeww,
fucked up with the ceremony of graduate
aii've still enjoyed bein' a overjoyin' gals!!
yea,, being naughty whose only thought
about lessoned and goin' crazy!!
eventhough the ages more higher
aii dun't care!!
just feeling that aii'm not alone being ugly person!!
why'd aii've been called like dat!!
sure, cuz un-tie now aii dunt hev spirit to
called anthin' called job blowed!!
hiaggss*
an illusion if aii've cannot do all of that
surely makes me shameless and doesn't hev braveness
meet the other cuz aii've looked and learned
how'd they're fucking proud of me!!
Listen another said just makes some another depression
about me!! man* aii can imagine dat aii've been dissapointed all of them..
even aii'm try hard, aii've supposed need another hand to hand,
let's said dat was not a people hand but Thelord Hands...
disputing never hev receives back all of my pray,
maybe, is just the way should aii've been go!!
and still must aii do..
how much a long time aii've been should
stuck in the reverse?!

Describin a Lot

Dearest Perempuan,

when idul fitri..
finally aii've cannot refussinginvitation my parents goes by!!yea eventhough, aii've felt hardly to move..soe childish semems look likebut is jus realitydat nobody's cannot life without entertainmentrite now, even just to joyin' itself alone..aii've felt a donkey haha86xfunny!!but nobody's care,yeah!! nobody's carewithout exception..

Day 1

beginning the journeystarted the village goes,aii'm sow sow naked of boredwhere's aii've couldn't done somethin' to be,though aii've seems like an ego,aii've still cannot understand why'd nobody's uncare me likes no one on my side..okayyy, dat wasn't matter because aii've prevent nobody's sees meHaaa..that's what aii've been said about the daydat aii've never get a precious moment, either it's belong to me or anythin' else..aii've got depressed soon*aii've made a commitment by myselfaii've might leaved some humanity appeal,all dat there's a proof dat aii was never there..

A HALF OF JOURNEY

haaaa!!they've been even said dat aii'm aii've was freaky freakin' weirdyap!! aii've guess dat's not my careness about gigt some comment,if they're really wanna doYeww!! that aii'm freaky weird..

Day 2

That's not whole about what aii've been said b ffoif aii've ever tell dat aii've freaky fuckin' nerd bein hereffo a while, aii've been used feelin' finethough there's no more phone and disregrad about funaii've the most hev a times lookin' around..from the beginnin aii've never b angry and unrespecteed felt wit anybody elseafter a long timeaii've even hev more time hev kiddin' wit my sis and brotheraii've even have time to forgottin' all of thisdat aii've BECOME unlucky person ever!!The most dat aii've pretend was aii've beenhonourbein' all of this, bein' a partof large LIES!!aii've become the most to knowdat they're even never surely dat aii'm ever alive!!

aii've ever hev some the other plandat aii'm goin' through and feel the vibe after all of this..even when aii'm goes looked another way..even when aii'm goes to looked amother people hev another own way to feelin fine aii'm not choosed*aii've just sent forgiving mmsgjus ffo twice to my besd and to mys sist*aii've foremost felt doesn't hev regradingself!!aii'm bein' supposed no one, or aii'm notanyone who've shoved..Look both of them never sensitivityabout what aii've been felt, aii' curiositydat aii've dammed person who'd hada dream that where and what all aii've aboutaii'm wipe the tears although doesn't exitin'the tears aii've tried keephev a gud though dat aii'm stupid girl!!and aii've Lways bein' stupid girl ffo ever*

Day 3

Other Side of the world

if aii'm ever told that nobody'stalkin about carelessnessthat was jus unaffair fuckin' statementaii've heard and seen their had talked to..Yea, likes a dog licked their own spit,dat's not about aii'veg ot braveness opoenedsome fakin' the other..but if aii'm opened my eyes wide open sometimesclose friend could be some foe*or the closest person bein'fuckin' man*and my famactually surely bein' stupid and easyto bite a change dat made of!! they're like lookin'wit a pieces of eye and never lookin' or belong us like their fam*ffo a 1st time aii've felt uncomfortable bein' here..nobody's even our grand was careness about me and my sistand aii dun't know wasn't they're really exited?!

Day 4Some Changes happened
it's gonna b shamelessif aii've made up my mindjust to thingkin' datsomebody changes anythin' because they'rebeen here and nowhere*yea, aii've been agreeif somebody was gonethe other will feelin; finebecause there's more space to breath..even aii've decided doesn't wanna followedaii've ever think dat it's gonna become the same as ordinaryand da aii've made true guessin'aii've never told aii wanna somethin'but it's not fair, why'd?!they've talked sweetyfront and next just another bullshitHa!! there's no regret aii've even forecast and dare if aii've lost.aii'll become freaky fuckin' peolethey're had fucked huge bullshit!!

And when They've gone..

aii've more betteractually aii've even could interacted by anyone elsefalse dat aii've made was discoverbecause aii've been try sees by anyone..

Day 5

changed the planned and nobody'smove!! why'd all of them wasn't hev a sound to talked todat's not becausepart of my own..but just self regrad becomethey!! and it's gonna happenedwe've home without talked too much

Day 6

Arrived when nobody's was homedat da family goes by taxi anda had a lunch bffo it..whooaaa!! aii've lookin' changin quickly!!

Day 7

Syawal time and nothin' to explain'just another A7X thingssurely aii've ever didwit MCR esp wit my Geetry lookin' vo another pics aboutthem The Vengeance and Synysterwhoaa!! aii've felt twice of depth..

it's to freaky out

Dearest perempuan,

Doesn't really matter
dat aii've never giving up
and b stuck in these case occasions..
aii've never to ask more
how aii've been high even
aii've must leaving my pleassure
inside..

it's was killing me inside and outside,
matter if aii've cannot doing anything
when aii'm outhere,
yea, maybe aii've lessoned
to be a dorky person,
who'd doesn't never hev anything*

aii've must find an another way
to giving my live high,
aii've scared dat if aii'll b there
aii'll be insane quicky,

Dat's another assume
dat aii've been share where's nobody's
listen my inspire,
aii'll just beggin' hope
dat all of my fam are having a great
journey and using
their holiday time well..

and aii'll pretend
that's nothing ever happened to me..
once again,
aii've tried to found the god
that aii've ever think that he's leaved me!!
if dat was true, aii've can't doit anything more
and aii've realized aii've must received*

aii've loose some

Dearest Perempuan,

after aii've been a silent

aii'm felt aii'm loose some,

anything..

Life

Leaffd,

brave,

selfregard,

Freedom

even

Lord..

aii've felt being a rebel

was better..

nothing everything in this world

could stop to fucking insane..

aii've begun leaffd

the A7x song because of

bring the inspired to

goin' carzy alone

and nobody's critism

was legalled*

aai've learned

dat somebody's doesn't lways

get cleaned body's or cleaned from tattos*

even they'll might be better,

all of they feel they sounding

that everybody's was don't wanna

lessoned was there's no excuses,,

Like walking into a dream,

so unlike what you've seen

so unsure but it seems,

’cause we’ve been waiting for you

Fallen into this place,

just giving you a small taste

of your afterlife here so stay,

you'll be back here soon anyway
I see a distant light,

but life this can't be right

Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be

Arrived too early
And when I think of all the places I just don't belong

I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far
I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,

far away from here
A place of hope and no pain,

perfect skies with no rain

Can leave this place but refrain,

’cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste

of your afterlife here so stay,

you'll be back here soon anyway
This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)

No pain or sign of time

(I’m much too young to fall)

So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign

I've made up my mind
Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye

Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life
I don't belong here,

I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,

far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light,

and I’d hope you might

take me back inside when the time is right
Loved ones back home all crying ’cause they're already missing me

I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening

Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be

(I am unbroken; I’m schoking on this ecstasy)

Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me

(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)
I don't belong here,

I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife’

Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely

I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light,

and I’d hope you might

take me back inside when the time is right

if aii've realized

there's alot of life learned

such the God was never talking

we'll lways seems known how the blessed of..

This SonG DescriBed aBoUt Me*

Dearest Perempuan,

Hold up, Hold on..Don’t be scared..You’ll never change what’s been and gone
May aii'm smile Shine on..Don’t be scared..Your destiny may keep you warm
Coz all of the stars are fading awayJust try not to worry..aii’ll see them some day..Take what you need and be on your wayAnd stop crying your heart out
Get up,come on, Why’ve you scared? You’ll never change what’s been and gone.
Coz all of the stars are fading awayJust try not to worry..You’ll see them some day..Take what you need and be on your way..And stop crying your heart out
We’re all of us stars..We’re fading awayJust try not to worry..You’ll see us some day..Just take what you need..And be on your way..And stop crying your heart out..Stop crying your heart out..Stop crying your heart out

aTLiEnMe,

is it aii'll get these stuff*

Dearest Perempuan,

after a long time

aii didn't hev a phone!!

doesn't matter actuallly,

but aii've been felt aii needed that aii'm to known..

even aii've ready to loose contact

with my friends

n the important was aii've can't

porpose Any kind of jobs applied..

Hfff*

aii dun't think sow,

aii mean is hard to get,

it was just waited a date destination the Idul Fitri

n if the planned has work

Goin' to the Village

aii guess aii hasn't..

Hff*

Anytime aii felt stupid

why'd aii've still be waited something

dat cannot realize..

aii've introvert about myself doesn't

changing anything!!

even when aii'm bleeding crying doesn't give me

excused..

Hff*

How hard these life,

aii've known

too much to dealing..

but aii guess i cannot

life in these same condition with a long term anymore..

aii've prefer aii've face on something that aii've cannot

breath!!

sow, there's no decision beside

u'll finished ur life..

Hff*

aii've doesn't any choice and bravelessness

it mean aii've been waited into how long time

aii've dun' know,

The important aii'll still hope,

even that was hopelessness*

aTLiEnMe,

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