Minggu, September 28, 2008

it's to freaky out

Dearest perempuan,

Doesn't really matter
dat aii've never giving up
and b stuck in these case occasions..
aii've never to ask more
how aii've been high even
aii've must leaving my pleassure

it's was killing me inside and outside,
matter if aii've cannot doing anything
when aii'm outhere,
yea, maybe aii've lessoned
to be a dorky person,
who'd doesn't never hev anything*

aii've must find an another way
to giving my live high,
aii've scared dat if aii'll b there
aii'll be insane quicky,

Dat's another assume
dat aii've been share where's nobody's
listen my inspire,
aii'll just beggin' hope
dat all of my fam are having a great
journey and using
their holiday time well..

and aii'll pretend
that's nothing ever happened to me..
once again,
aii've tried to found the god
that aii've ever think that he's leaved me!!
if dat was true, aii've can't doit anything more
and aii've realized aii've must received*

aii've loose some

Dearest Perempuan,

after aii've been a silent

aii'm felt aii'm loose some,









aii've felt being a rebel

was better..

nothing everything in this world

could stop to fucking insane..

aii've begun leaffd

the A7x song because of

bring the inspired to

goin' carzy alone

and nobody's critism

was legalled*

aai've learned

dat somebody's doesn't lways

get cleaned body's or cleaned from tattos*

even they'll might be better,

all of they feel they sounding

that everybody's was don't wanna

lessoned was there's no excuses,,

Like walking into a dream,
so unlike what you've seen
so unsure but it seems,
’cause we’ve been waiting for you
Fallen into this place,
just giving you a small taste
of your afterlife here so stay,
you'll be back here soon anyway
I see a distant light,
but life this can't be right
Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be
Arrived too early
And when I think of all the places I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far
I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,
far away from here
A place of hope and no pain,
perfect skies with no rain
Can leave this place but refrain,
’cause we've been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
of your afterlife here so stay,
you'll be back here soon anyway
This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)
No pain or sign of time
(I’m much too young to fall)
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind
Gave me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life
I don't belong here,
I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,
far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light,
and I’d hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right
Loved ones back home all crying ’cause they're already missing me
I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken; I’m schoking on this ecstasy)
Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)
I don't belong here,
I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife’
Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely
I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light,
and I’d hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right

if aii've realized

there's alot of life learned

such the God was never talking

we'll lways seems known how the blessed of..

Jumat, September 26, 2008

This SonG DescriBed aBoUt Me*

Dearest Perempuan,

Hold up, Hold on..Don’t be scared..You’ll never change what’s been and gone
May aii'm smile Shine on..Don’t be scared..Your destiny may keep you warm
Coz all of the stars are fading awayJust try not to worry..aii’ll see them some day..Take what you need and be on your wayAnd stop crying your heart out
Get up,come on, Why’ve you scared? You’ll never change what’s been and gone.
Coz all of the stars are fading awayJust try not to worry..You’ll see them some day..Take what you need and be on your way..And stop crying your heart out
We’re all of us stars..We’re fading awayJust try not to worry..You’ll see us some day..Just take what you need..And be on your way..And stop crying your heart out..Stop crying your heart out..Stop crying your heart out


Kamis, September 25, 2008

is it aii'll get these stuff*

Dearest Perempuan,

after a long time

aii didn't hev a phone!!

doesn't matter actuallly,

but aii've been felt aii needed that aii'm to known..

even aii've ready to loose contact

with my friends

n the important was aii've can't

porpose Any kind of jobs applied..


aii dun't think sow,

aii mean is hard to get,

it was just waited a date destination the Idul Fitri

n if the planned has work

Goin' to the Village

aii guess aii hasn't..


Anytime aii felt stupid

why'd aii've still be waited something

dat cannot realize..

aii've introvert about myself doesn't

changing anything!!

even when aii'm bleeding crying doesn't give me



How hard these life,

aii've known

too much to dealing..

but aii guess i cannot

life in these same condition with a long term anymore..

aii've prefer aii've face on something that aii've cannot


sow, there's no decision beside

u'll finished ur life..


aii've doesn't any choice and bravelessness

it mean aii've been waited into how long time

aii've dun' know,

The important aii'll still hope,

even that was hopelessness*

Selasa, September 23, 2008

No comment just a pics tells a millions meaned

it seems sow important to me..

Dearest Perempuan,

occured aii've got a taraweh pray aii've been supposed lways got an advantaged from the speaker..
included ffo this night aii've lessoned a lot from him dat anything should be happend with us remembering before u've got a sleep u might done four things:
  1. You must Finished Read an al-Quran
  2. You must Goin' To Haj
  3. You must said greeting to Muhammad S.A.W Prophet
  4. You must be blessing by the same moeslem each other

and if you'd can't done for one night you can replace with:

  1. Read an Al-ikhlas Surah Ffo 3 Times
  2. Read an Takbiratul to Allah S.W.T
  3. Read an Shalawat To our Huge Muhammad Prophet
  4. Read an Astangfirullah Ffo 3 times

Insya allah if u'll called by the Holly your ready responbilities your done..

Before Taraweh Prey,

aii'm supposing seat on my chair lmost 5 hours, Not along times than tomorrow..

aii've been washed first after woke up and then no talked occured the days passed over

before fasted opened finished Fasted these day..

A lot things around on my head*

about everything..

  1. About shameness
  2. About Anger
  3. About My Parents
  4. About My JoB
  5. About My answering
  6. About all around in my head
  7. About uncertainly
  8. About pain
  9. About Uncuriosity
  10. About The relations between Myself and Lord*

aai must found the answer sow aii can goin' doin' life and can sleep tite'


Senin, September 22, 2008

Fixed My 1sT n 2nd Friendster Acc

Dearest Perempuan,

throught over to fixed my 1st acc n 2nd Acc..

either aii've might return from the beginning,

aii'll try!!

and makes me not supposed hard

to fixed it as aii had a lot friends

from the first*

aii didn't lied,

after along time aii never concerned about them

aii've been thank a lot

because although aii never tried to opened

it seems a lot people tried to added me*


aii dun't it goes ffo a long time?!

but aii felt sow honour..

when aii'm felt aii've got situated behind

aii'll still exist..


Before aii've started to sitted

on my chair in front of the pc

aii dun't done tarawih pray!!


Before dat when fasted opened

we've been in family togetherness with

another nephews..

and it seems not like extraordinary moment**

aii've made one pict by

which becoming the points is

aii've been back on my bad habit

to crop n let's the photo incresed one people

and aii've been never mind if that was..

Lways on 2 days behind aii've write a blog

when through the date and days on it..



Minggu, September 21, 2008

aii Had To Go My Nephew Cribs..

Dearest Perempuan,

after aii passed by the tired day ever ..

aii had to go!! absolutelly because of the promise

dat aii've made Before*

After aii've Got

washed the dirtiest Custom Me, and mysisters on ride*

we've deal go for it*

Aii'd Known My sister

was Angered By my mom,

she'd got a bad day,

and then decided to go*

aii dun't know,

How could my mother said dat*

after all she said thats impossible

Let's her child angered by her*

in cases those time she'd licked her said..

Absolutelly, Bored

n suck* Done all of this..


after we've go through of,

we've got to shower n then gone n permitted

only to my daddy..

aii never now,

he'd got Two faces on the same time,

he'd can encorouge his child and

on the same times he encorouged his wife*

Poor vo me n my sister*

He'd not felt he'd got

responsbility about us..

either he'd didn't give us some money,

he'd never give us support how'd to

fixed the condition with our mommy!!

Fortunenetly, is just fasting

sow, we dun't care n never tgought to much about it..

We called our sister n said we'd

hurried to goes by..

intention for the first, aii'd wanna bought

GADIZ magazine..

Unfortunetly, uded up..

n aii've might be back on thr same night!!

After through all of long way road,

we've waited some bis ich could broiught us

to our nephew house!!


Lways Fulled the passengers*

we've patient to waited, un-tie

any 45 Bus was empty passenger..

we've patiencely waited the bus brought us into

our nephew*


it's was a tip of a long road..

And the worried was continued and we've

been didn't know where'd the adresses.,.

after we called from received and unreceived*

Guess what?!
we've been take a walk to reach the destiny!!


Absollutely sow thirsty,

and after we arrived we've just take a reat and

colled down, after we've been could breath easy!!

Before open fasted*

The Houses owner, wanna to go

looking for some listed to got an opened fasting..

she'd go with her 1st child and my sister..

And The Stories was begun*

whwn his mother was gone,

aii've been got a responbilities to take care him

so dat he'd cannot cry!!

aii'ce used all the way

from the easier into the harder*

and the most makes me paronoia was when he take back

his neighboorhood to gettien into their grand -ma


aii've scared is just only a suck way

to take back..

After along time ago

his mom was back and!!

aii've never understood a child thought,

after he'd looked her mother why'd he'd mighty to cried?!

aii'llve try to calm

and waited untie his mom ask him*

We've share our Laugh and gladness..

after along time we've been never got

taking a relationship wit other,

we've got from these moment!!

another confussed was comes

when we've been hard to decide what'd

we could do?!

we've been goin home or

stay on our nephew house?!

Finally we've decide to go home**

Dat was darknight

but we've tried to take cared our self alone

eventhough we've sleepover sow much..

and we'd arrived at home safety,

ooucchh..before aii go home

aii bought the magazine,

aii've worried aii'd never got

because dat's only one magazine..



Sabtu, September 20, 2008

after a long time to go!!

Dearest Perempuan,

Dat's nothing dat aii've been remind..when sincerely aii've made some blog a few years ago!! after all dat aii'd take and aii gave..aii decide to make my own personalize blog again!! and the most important, all dat aii can do, aii'll do it better..wherever aii can write anytime dat aii wanna write!!

aii realize more grew up dat aii ever thought, such as a hard find someone to divided all my tears and my stories*

even aii'm not hev a habit to spoke with anybody else about what aii felt, and what aii meant!!

dat was encorouge me to stands and believe to my own self,

to understood and find a way to rescue my own bleeding..

dat's nothing dat aii ever heard from a lot people about a s**k life after

all they had seen and they ever felt..

aii'm not try listen and learned from all my fault

a few years ago..

aii've demand it supposing bring a huge change vo my self,

event not much but it should be more..